Yesterday I woke up with this urge to begin wearing shorts again. Okay so this may sound kind of funny for a trainer who has very muscular legs; however since May when I injured my hip and had to stop running and doing any sort of sweaty activity I have not particularly loved my legs. I will admit that what use to be an asset for me when waiting on tables has turned into the one body part that I hide underneath LuLu pants and baggy soccer trousers. I prefer to be in pants and have always had this preference. I feel like I can just jump around and move in all different directions without shorts riding up or getting in places that are clearly uncomfortable. Since I have not been running or lunging I just feel loose and flabby in my thighs. Ladies, you know how that feels! So training in pants has helped me not focus on that.
What do I not like about my legs? I have cellulite and it's stubborn, strategically placed on my thighs where you cannot see it up close but for some reason I CAN ALWAYS SEE IT. I have had it since I was 15. My mother and her mother have it. Genetics will be my nemesis here; however when I was running and squatting like a maniac it seemed to dissipate to my naked eye. I also have veins that can make me a bit self-conscious. I am not just picking myself apart. When standing in the shower or looking at myself in the mirror this is what I see. Just like you - even though I am a trainer - I have insecurities that could start a morning off terribly. Honesty at it's finest here.
As I begin to heal more quickly and now have had the green light to begin working out more and start a walk/run program I told myself yesterday that I am going to have to begin confronting my insecurities. Just like you I have more than one...my legs seemed like the best to face head on this week. I do not want to enter the new year with these insecurities hanging over my head. Life is far more complicated than stressing about cellulite and loss muscle tone.
So yesterday I put on a pair of LuLu shorts and my favorite pink sneakers of the moment and confronted my soft spot! I vow to not be paralyzed by distorted body image this upcoming year.
When I walked into the gym my attire was quite noticeable. Ooh, people are really paying attention to me. A good thing for a trainer but for that girl who can sometimes beat herself up in the mirror...eeek! However, I smiled and walked with confidence and knew that what I was doing stemmed way beyond just putting on a pair of shorts. I was embracing what God has given me and confronting the beautiful athlete that I am.
What insecurity can you confront today? Stay tuned for my weekly blog post on Confronting my insecurities.
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